Little part of my history

I still remember, when at 2009 i registered account at DA. I was newbie and not understand what mean 'llama', 'favs', etc. My English was more bad then now. (I think now i have better skills at it xD).
At the internet experienced a lot of stories then my real life (i think). Honestly, i never had art-support, soul support. At real life and virtual people was rude with me. I was outcast at my school and institute. I draw my art from childhood. When i load first noob things on DA, i got some favs xD I am ashamed of my old drawings. At 2010 i lost real friends, 2 betrayed me, 1 (close friend) died at in an accident, on that moment i experienced the most horrible feelings, was on the verge of suicide. At than moment no one helped me survive it. I think i not telled about it on DA, but also i had bad attitude on the part of parents and all my relatives (forever outcast, blah >.<). After some time i bought a tablet for drawing and and evil began diligently to improve skills in drawing. My mother always said at that time "You loser. It's all. Your art is sh*t." I was alone at this cruel world. I don't remember how it happened, but i found great person at DA - Billy, also i grateful to this man, because he helped to me without any compensation, helped without benefits for themselves. Honestly, i happy know about this great friend, thank you. He did not attach importance to my bad English xD After some time i improved my skills with communication with Billy and other guys. This person to me like a best relative, also i hope at the next life he can be my dad or mother.
At this moment i'm hikikomori, who live just at virtual.
That's all.